July 24, 2012

Never Once

Above all else, guard your HEART, the wellspring of LIFE.” Proverbs 4:23

Although I can NOT remember a day that I wasn’t aware that my [physical] heart could fail because of the anthracyclines and chest radiation used to treat my cancer [Ewing’s Sarcoma] 30 years prior, I also can NOT remember EVER thinking [it] would actually fail…

Never once did I ever consider the possibility that my heart would be amputated [and] the heart of another would be gifted to me and stitched in its place, a heart that provides for function, but is [of] different substance making rejection a thought, present with me though not consuming…

Never once did I ever imagine that the taking of two anti-rejection medications, ProGraf [and] CellCept, every 12 hours @ 8am/8pm for the rest of my LIFE would be an ESSENTIAL aspect in the guarding, the protecting of this heart, my heart graced to me…

Never once did I ever walk alone [and] often times I was carried with head resting on chest in arms, all loving [and] much stronger than my then faint heart…

myHeart, myBody altogether well [and] a wellspring of LIFE, GRATITUDE.

~stephiedee

PS Never once have I thought the story of impact of late effects has been completed in myLife: stay tuned, more to come…

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